i am so stressed, there is so much to do :| i have something for every damn subject. and its not even like little hmk! its like frickin projects and assignments :| argggg and ive been sleep deprived lately.

ive also been really upset lately. maybe my lack of sleep is affecting me because i am constantly upset and sometimes when im left alone, i start to think ive fallen into depression. i dont kno if i have, but i havent felt like this before. just to constantly feel like something is tugging at your heart. i kno on the outside it doesnt seem like it but its constantly on my mind and i laugh with people hoping itll cheer me up and push it away, but its not working. when im alone its the worst.

i just want to feel free. maybe its the whole stress thing + lack of sleep + bad grades + other random junk thats making me feel upset. i cant wait till the holidays.