woot i am not taken for granted and someone is actually putting effort into me

although its not much, its like a huge step forward for him, to actually try to say things that show they care. ie: "call me when you're home, k?" and "do you want me to come with you?" (referring to carjacking and me driving late at night)

o and telling me he wanted to buy something to eat and then offering me the first bite, then saving the last piece for me.

but i think i do have myself figured out quite thoroughly... i want what i cant have not what i can.

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my day blog

well i just wanted to say that viv's surprise bday thing was a HUGE success. it was incredibly amazing. i wish i could record every single detail. every single thing i said to her that related to the party but she had no clue as to what i was doing. i want to remember everything. from her reaction to the stress tracy and i went thru just planning it and putting it together in 3 days or so.

what was the best feeling tho was bringing her into destinys and seeing 50 ppl all across the wall singing happy birthday. that was incredible.

and then the other surprises that came in. the cell phone. the last two roses (which are in my house now lol). the cake. EVERYTHING : ) omgosh i think i had a happier time than her.

then the dare game we had with the mss ppl. hahahah "i am chester lam. and you are my lang". tylor pole dancing, chester and doug kiss LOL! tylor and samuel nose wiggling : ) hahahaha

then chester calling me WITHOUT ME ASKING

um... yeah lol : )

the next day (vivs actual bday) i had to do stuff, but then we ate dinner with mss ppl and watched prom night. really shoddy movie. like beyond horrible. 8-) tracy... you wouldve laughed more than screamed

then we went bbt with them and yeah. fun stuff : )

and then at night we talked on the phone till like 2:30ish. viv called me 10 min after, then alvin called me at 3:30. woke up at 6:30 to get ready to go to the y wtih viv. called up chester to wake him up and we talked on the phone for a while, while he waited for elison.

going to the y early in the morning on a day like this is amazing. it feels so nice : ). watched chester play bball and drove dad to church, drove back to ymca to wait for them and then went to eat lunch. after lunch we went to markville to pay for something. then picked up viv for lunch. dropped her back off. went to pmall. ran into nathan. drove back to vivs church. drove to vivs house. hung around a bit and tada! here i am

i think chester and i are making a lot more progress -_- like... a HELL lot more. from 2 days ago where when i see him we dont even make eye contact to just basically not flushing when someone refers to us talking on the phone all night.

although its more like ingrid chatting herself away and chester saying "ngng"

ok since i slept so late and woke up so early i am exhausted!

SLEEP TIME!