i am no longer important

i remember reading this sticky note in the ENVS bathroom and it said "are you the most important to someone?" i didnt even think of my parents, i immediately thought nathan.

ugh, now i am back to nothing. i remember this feeling. back when we broke up. exactly the same cruddy feeling of hopelessness and sadness, only this time i mix it in with a bunch of regret as well.

this really blows. i thought we were on the same page... everything seemed to read that way too.

is this gonna start another 8 month long of regret? ughhhhhh... just when i recently thought i have never experienced the feeling of rejection and loss in such a long time, it creeps up on me in the most unexpected way.

this. freaking. blows. : (

maybe i should just let it go.