karma can really come back and kick someone hard in the butt. i miss my friends a lot and i feel like i cant prioritze things very well. most of all i miss vivian and just how things were. this summer was really bad in terms of my relationship with viv : (

i feel like her lesbian lover, but i think its cuz i hang out with nathan too much and issues are always resolved in a different way than how i would with a friend.... yeah, i hugged viv a lot and cried 8-)

i also have to remember that friendships ARE different from relationships and even tho nathan can forgive me easily on some things and let it slide without a second thought, friendships are different. some things cant be shoved to the side as easily as i thought.

i feel really shitty about vivian and i wish i could turn back time. i think this would be the second on my list for things i would like to have changed in my life. yeah, like i feel that shitty about it -_-. ahhhhhhhhh

i need to be a better friend to her... and loretta and other ppl that have always been there for me : (

i miss you guys