ack! i am soooo stupid : (, gavin told me to send him my resume before 8 so he could hand it in for me and get a job. i realized at 8:15! dammit... : ( i hope he can do it another day? i sent it to him anyways.

i feel so scatterbrained these days. i forget everything and i lose everything. sometimes the stuff i forget affects other ppl too and it makes me feel a little bad. oh who am i kidding? i feel terrible -_- and unreliable. like that one time i asked to meet up with kevin y so i could take a couple pics of him for my english project and he agreed, but i forgot to in the end and he waited for me -_-. and i always lose things. i cant find a lot of stuff... i even lost alex's textbook :S

stuff also doesnt seem to get absorbed into my brain as easily as before. usually even if i dont pay attention to people, i can still recall what they said to me when i zone out, but now its just like in one ear, out the other.

i think its cuz im tired... i hope its that, and after a long rest my brain will function as usual and i dont need to worry its shrinking or deteriorating.

people say girls that are born early in the year will learn things faster early in their life, but they will eventually slow down at the end of highschool. maybe thats whats happening? : ( if so thats so sad -_-

oh and sometimes i watch those korean movies where the girl has that memory disease and they forget everything and eventually die, and that scares me cuz i get all imaginative and i create this dramatic near-future for myself. or in bio we learn about all those diseases and some of them include memory loss and being tired all the time and then eventually their brains blow up and they die : (.

i hope its just cuz im tired and summer will fix it all up

anyways, i should be studying for physics because i dont get a thing thats going on in physics and the exams on friday. i also have no idea whats going on in chem. like absolutely none. i havent done any homework or paid any attention during class, which i kno i should have. its mainly cuz im tired tho and i cant even hold the pencil properly sometimes : (

oh yes, announcement to all, i am yearbook layout editor and deca exec member : ) woot woot go me lol

and i need some feedback, should i
a) join art club
b) create a popular culture club
c) create a comic book club
d) not join anything else, too much is on my plate

feedback feedback!