i am sitting alone in the yearbook room -_-. i feel so weird and paranoid like theres someone looking over my shoulder and ready to pounce on me any second. or maybe reading what im typing :S. so weird...

anyways, so jasper, wes, kristen and summer left, and meghan and janet left a longgg time ago, and im left with a computer.

lately, ive been trying to stop the "word vomit" (if you've watched Mean Girls) from coming out. but usually i just acknowledge that its gonna come out, and then i stop myself, think for a couple of seconds and let it out anyways. -_- well one could argue that at least i know that its coming. i usually dont realize until its been said and a few hours after. the first step to healing is admitting, so i guess im taking my very first step. mwahaha, trying to justify my wrongs lol.

im so excited to cut my hair, yet.... i dunno -__- im a little scared cuz i really like my hair now, but seriously, its been too long. i know, why am i cutting my hair when i finally like it? i think its because hair cuts are always a catastrophe and i wait it out for a couple (more like a gazillion) months for it to grow out, and once it has, its nice, but i'm ready for a change again lol. additionally, i think when i do have the "satisfactory hair style" its always the same and im tired of just finding only one hair style that suits me. i want to find more. and one day, i will find it : ) lol