omg @_@

so i was procrastinating again as usual and i came across my history log. i checked it out, wanting to see who i talk to the most and of course its kelvin. i mean i was going out with him then, i couldnt not have not talked to him -_-. anyways, thats not the point. i read it and i was like @_@ holy crap HOWWWWWWWW could i have liked this guy. like how?! i don't understand. i felt so... angry when i read it. not angry cuz i chose him over nathan. i really don't blame him at all for this mistake. no, more like how a pre-school teacher feels when their student doesn't understand them. i don't understand how i could have overlooked it and covered up his inability to understand me. or comprehend the english i type out. i think i did feel angry and frusterated back then but i'd just be like "no... this is him. i like him for who he is"

i remember feeling the "no.. this is him...etc" feeling for nathan. but this is different. nathan's "flaws" were like... flaws that everyone had -_- like you could actually come up with a decent excuse and overlook it without it bothering you. CUZ THEY WERE NORMAL. but like i don't know what i was thinking with kelvin. like SERIOUSLY, ingrid -_-. seriously.

i couldnt read past one day's convo. i tried. it made me feel frusterated and i would groan to myself like WHAT WAS I THINKINGGGGGGGGG @_@. we're just not compatible in any shape or form.

alkjrkjsalkfjksljf @_@

someone PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE smack me in the head if i ever consider fobs again. unless their english is up to par. cuz i cannot believe i would overlook someone's lack of understanding just because he has style/looks good. @_@