i see how its like...

right now i am waiting for nathan to finish his conversation with kitty and call me back. so you cant judge whatever i have been doing to pass the time.

i was creeping on facebook -_- haha its not that embarrassing i guess, but thats not the point. the point is i decided to go on aarons page after.... who knows how many days/weeks. anyways, mr aaron kwok HAS A NEW TARGET.

i am so ready to warn this girl... but its not my place. the feeling i had when i noticed her filling his wall space like how i was back a while ago was just... hurt? but not really. just a little bit. like the TEENIEST TINIEST bit of feeling. otherwise i didnt really care. a little hurt because i feel like i got played, yet at the same time I DONT CARE.

the more i think about aaron, the less appealing he gets. yet the more i think about nathan, the more my feelings grow. this just proves that looks takes you no where.

anyways, so thats my discovery! aaron kwok is what everyones been telling me about- just a general "keep all his options open" and never settle down kind of guy. on top of him being really lame (according to alvin).

the other thing i wanted to mention was a couple of days ago i talked to jared and i was sure to keep my mouth shut about certain things but felt free to talk about the past. then as nathan was driving me home i was like hmm... i wonder if i said anything bad... but i was pretty certain about myself. and then at night joram called me but i missed it, and then i called him and he hung up on me so i thought he was really mad at me for who knows what.

luckilyyyy he told me the next morning hes just calling to say hi cuz he was drunk -_-
scared the crap outta me