Resolution : )

there are some things i need to do after this week

1. sleep early
2. stop eating junk
3. stop eating after 9
4. go to all my classes
5. never let homework be left alone till last minute
6. stop drinking/partying/getting high/anything along those lines

but i realized that i cant sleep early because i want to talk to nathan at night but he only gives me time when hes sleeping which is really late which does not allow me to sleep early : (

i have no excuses for eating -_- it is a temptation i cannot resist : (

class + hmk i never seem to go/do

and i will limit drinking/partying or w/e to once a month. my body is taking a toll... and i cant afford to waste myself away. i am weak -_-
this is pretty much the main reason why im going to limit drinking and that stuff. i dont want to tell nathan cuz i think he'll think im just doing it cuz he said not to...
gahhh this thought process is hard to put down into words :S

i am doing this for me and i dont want to come across as pathetic and that he controls my life in every aspect. plus i think if he thinks im doing it because he said so he wont like it anyways cuz its not a self initiated action.

something like that :S

but of course if doing this helps him get over his trust issues, im not complaining

anyways, today i went house hunting and first of all, wow a 20 min walk is far..... and they are dingy and ugly. one of them smells like cabin water :S.

i have so much shit to do @_@