when i live in the present i am over aaron. but when i think about the break, the things that happened before the break, the text messaging, the late night msning, webcamming, chilling, making forts, watching movies, himym, eating, walkie talkie-ing, random phone calls to see how i was doing, the moments we exchange words that make it obvious there are mutual feelings, how close i was to going out with this guy, i get sad.

i should have said something that night he said he wanted to know something from pris. i should have just spoken up.

but really? wouldnt it just end messy anyways? yeah, maybe it was better to not go through with that.

i wish i could live in the break forever.