so my lesson of the day

is to not ________. cuz it will bug the shit out of you.

so.... pissed off... -_______-". and trais' asleep now, so i cant bother her. AHHHHHHHH why did i do it?! for the stupidest reason too! i wasnt doing it for that purpose. omfgggg, it was for such a legitment reason and it turns sour on me. i will never do that again. never never never never never never never never never never never never never never. next time i will just ask for the answer and not do what i did.

WHYYYY : ( everything was good too and i let everything go -_- omg. i am angry now. and pissed off at myself.

ahhhhhhhhh i dont want to sleep tonight to get rid of these feelings but i have a LOT to do 2mrw and i cannot afford to miss anything. fuck. i am so pissed off. FUCK FUCK FUCK : (

i hate nathan chan. i know, i know i knowwwwww my previous post says otherwise. im so angry right now. fuck. i hate michelle even more -_-.

sometimes i feel like whatever we have is inevitable and we are stuck with each other. like whenever we try to leave each other we will always find each other. but at others i feel like its been fucked up too many times and there are so many scars, do i want this? its so bad. there are so many mistakes and faults in this relationship. its kind of sad to cherish something so... damaged. but i dont want to leave it cuz this is a stupid cycle and i will find him again and there will be yet another slash into our stupid relationship. fuck, i just cant get out of this crappy feeling.

everytime i get on a high, something fucks me over.

i want to ask -_- but i cant. ahhhhhhhhhhhh

*and im too lazy to revise and edit it, but i realized what i feel is not anger but sadness. i am actually just really down and sad right now. i want to cry... but my eye will infect again. great!