so... rachael is out hating me.

i dont blame her... but thats because she doesnt see the full picture. everything looks a certain way. but its totally not reality.

if she knew me, she'd know im on her side completely and ive been looking out for her feelings. i dont do anything with kelvin. i dont engage in flirtatious activities with him... i dont say anything that would hint at anything. when he asks me if i like him i give him a cold no. i am dry, i am mean and i am downright harsh when he says things that can imply otherwise. i dont like it when people invade my personal space. and when he does i flip out on him.

also there are other ppl out there she should be worried about thats not me. ive been on her side the whole time and ive been trying to protect her.

he was just over yesterday to cheer me up and take my mind off of things. which worked! i am feeling alright today. he knew camwhoring was the way to destress me.

kelvins like a good friend of mine and i just want to see him mature, grow up and be a good boyfriend. i also dont like seeing him hurt rachael anymore. shes a great person and he's not taking her seriously.

w/e i kno she wont like me for a while, but maybe one day we'll actually get to know each other and she'll realize im farrrrrrrrr from what she thinks i am