aaron messes with my head. when it feels like he likes me i know deep down i truly do not have any geniune feelings for him. but when he is distant i feel sad.

talking to nathan today made me miss him too -_-. but not the nathan he is now. i feel like the nathan i used to like is gone. sometimes i see it still there, but most of the time its gone and something else has taken its place. i liked how he used to moderately use foul language, not constantly. i liked how he wasn't corrupted, but now he is smoking and doing weed all the time. i liked how he used to look at me with that... i dont kno "lingering look"? and i could see he cared a lot for me, but now its gone. : ( boo

i miss the old nathan