FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

i did the dumbest thing EVER

ok joey, this does not leak out to vanessa, hence me privating this.

aaron came over to watch himym with me again. and we were having a good time when vanessa calls to hang out and stuff. omg i am the dumbest person alive. she is more his type than me. shes completely whitewashed and lives the "rich" lifestyle and yada yada yada. anyways, i let her come. and i am the DUMBEST PERSON ALIVE. why would i do that?! why?!?!?!?!?!?!

i am the dumbest dumbest dumbest person alive. this was supposed to my ticket to OUT OF THIS CRAPPY NATHAN MOPING STAGE AND INTO A "I MET A HOT GUY" STAGE OF LIFE.

he just asked me for her name. meaning he'll add her on fb. fuck.

this feels like that time when i found out viv and bryan were going out. only this time, i had a chance. A REAL CHANCE.

ps: i forgot to mention that i got the same reaction from van -_-. once the door closed, we walked back and did our own thing for a couple of seconds before she could contain herself and i get a shriek of "OMGGGGGGGGGGG he is hot" and i was like i kno eh? and shes like his voice is so sexy....