i got into ANOTHER fight with nathan. and omgggggg after these couple of days of being infatuated or w/e it is with aaron, talking with nathan was really nice. it was normal and fun. and then yesterday.... ughhhh

so i was like you want to hang out? and hes like sure, but i needa pick up dad so lemme see if he wants to spend time with me first. so i assumed that meant he had no plans, but his dad comes first. if his dad doesnt want to spend time with him, his night is mine. and then later i texted him like how's 9:30? and hes like im still waiting for dad... so i was like ok text me when he arrives. after a longggg time i call him and hes driving home. so i was like ok text me when youre home. and after a realllllllllllly long time i call him and he kept hanging up on me, and i got a text like im busy, msg you after. that was like 10. and then at 11:15 i call him again... and then i just gave up and was gonna shower. but i was really peeved that i completely wasted this night on him when i couldve spent it with other people. i was talking to bosco so i was like omg.... can we go out tonight? and hes like sure... if you can drive. so i ask my dad and hes like its 11:30 ingrid, no. then i think i have my pms or w/e because i completely flipped out and started getting mad and i texted him like PISSED. and then he texted me back at 12 like why the fuck are you flipping out on me blah blah blah.

so anyways to make this short, he was like we'll chill later and when i thought later i thought 10 ish. he thought like... who knows? 4?!?!?!? like honestly, he texted me at 12 to tell me he's STILL doing w/e he's doing and omg im so annoyed! when he was done it was probably 2?! (cuz he called and said he just finished w/e he was doing). UGHHHH

ok so then hes like reschedule, my whole week is free. so i said ok how bout 2mrw? and then hes like sure. then wilfred calls and i asked him oh what did wilfred want? and he told me wilfred just wanted to tell him that hes going to play games at his house 2mrw (the day we're supposed to hang out). and josephs gonna be over too to discuss nyc trip. im like wtf? i thought 2mrw was my day... and hes like yeah! we can all chill.

i was so pissed off -_- when i told aaron what happened he was like wtf... that sounds fun....

oh and hes like how was i supposed to kno it was just supposed to be us two? im liek NATHAN I TOLD YOU SO MANY TIMES I WANT SOME ALONE TIME! omfggggggggg im so pissed off. he is so... ugh. treats me like im garbage. im not even considered a friend, i can never have some time from him.

im not even doing this to get bonding time with him so we can get back together. i just want to have some alone time with him and just have fun! our phone conversations were normal and fun and i thought oh maybe if we chill in real life itll be like this too!

im so annoyed at him

a comforting thought to unpiss myself off

pris was at the dinner with aaron and she was like oooo i heard you met van! and hes like yeah. then shes like so.... what do you think of her? and hes like i dont kno? i wasnt looking at her.

but he thinks im cute. so... mwahahahaha!

and last night he called me before he went to sleep and our phone convo was very normal and not awkward at all. it was really nice...

aaron stephen kwok : D makes ASK hahaha

i was like oh did you kno your initials make ask? and hes like did you kno your initials make eed-dif? lol hahaha

omg hes so hottttttt @_@